I discovered yesterday that I can be tired without being hypothyroid tired. It's a bit confusing. It's what happens when you start thyroxine straight after a 1.30 am bedtime.
It doesn't feel the same. I felt I'd slowed down, and I was yawning, but without that mesmerising wooziness that I had before. There wasn't the need to try to shut my eyes for a minute just to keep going.
The odd things are, firstly, that I have all the old habits. I'm guarding the energy I have and eeking it out, although I've yet to get back to the point where I just need to stop. I can see I'll need to be aware of what I'm doing.
Secondly, I get to bed feeling I could go on for a bit yet: there's still some reservoir of freshness (even at a second 1.30am bedtime) even though a little while before I was struggling to stay awake. Did I just get past being tired? I don't think so, it didn't feel like a second wind. It felt as though there was a bit of the previous morning still with me, that optomistic feeling that goes with being rested and refreshed.
Well, today... I have to admit I haven't felt quite as good as yesterday, but not as shattered as previously, ither. It could be because I took the dose a bit earlier in the day so it wasn't as strong later on. It also seems the thyroxine is doing what it's been doing for a while: finding different thnings to target. Today my eyes have been pretty good but not perfect, my voice has had its weak moments and - sorry if this is TMI - my digestion is starting to return to what it used to be pre-kids. I've managed to waste far too much timeon the computer and not enough getting jobs done, so there's an important habit to change. It's now 8.30 in the evening and I'm somewhat tired but not wiped out. Tonight I need to aim for a sensible bedtime and give my new tablets a fair chance, which they won't really have if I have worn myself out.
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